SANDS OF TIME

STOP THE CLOCK! Where does time go to? Surely Christmas was only half an hour ago and Ash Wednesday’s already just around the corner. God grant me the grace when Lent arrives to spend a bit of time alone in the “Wilderness” (gorgeously described by many commentators as a place undisturbed by the “works” of humankind). We understand that Jesus was led out into the wilderness alone. He wasn’t facing down demons in a Lent Group.

One of the demons I shall have a go at facing down is the one that’s constantly telling us all to run faster. It might as well be “jump down from this Temple and I’ll catch you”. Will anyone “catch” me? You know, I don’t believe that any more than Jesus did. It’s my own responsibility to slow down a bit – and I know that that involves a bit more effort than just shouting “stop the clock”. But let no-one pretend that it’s easy, that’s all. Because it ain’t.

And let no-one be persuaded by the voices that encourage us to abrogate our personal responsibilities to them or to the institutions they represent – especially the “religious” voices. Because a) they don’t mean it, and b) God made us capable of recognising that if we’re to have a share of responsibility for all life we must first learn to be responsible for our own.

ASHES

GRITTY. A GOOD WORD. Especially for Ash Wednesday. It’s the word that came to mind the very first time I presided at an Ash Wednesday Eucharist with Imposition of Ashes. There is, literally, a gritty connection between the signing thumb of the priest and the forehead of the recipient of this ancient sign. Liturgy and sacraments are often gritty, actually. Earthy would be a good word, too. Intimately, directly connected with life, wherever that life is found. Intimately, directly connected with me and you. Dust and ashes inspirited by the very breath of God remind us that matter matters.

Episcopal priest, Scott Gunn, writes: I used to dislike Ash Wednesday. Intensely. The only thing I looked forward to was the brilliance of Allegri’s Miserere mei, Deus. And then a number of years ago I realized something obvious: Ash Wednesday’s poignant reminder of our mortality is a profound gift. That gift, expressed in gritty ashes, is a reminder of an even greater gift: our precious journey in this life. Ash Wednesday reminds us to savor life — to use this brief pilgrimage for things heavenly, not things earthly. It reminds us to live life well — to experience the wholeness, joy, and health of salvation in Jesus Christ.

via I love Ash Wednesday.

Wholeness, joy and health of salvation. Way to go. I could do with a bit of that. I’m glad of reminder and encouragement to live life well. Bound by our forgetfulness it’s so easy to create our own hell. We don’t need any other agent to do that for us. But by the grace of a gritty reminder from time to time we can choose to live life well. It’s my privilege to have time to reflect each day on my own life, and to accompany many hundreds of wonderful, grace-filled people as they reflect upon their own. Grit, wit, great imagination, love, goodness and determination are all features of these lives, but so too are lack of wholeness, sadness and sickness despite our talk of salvation.

We’re just like the lovely damaged souls Jesus encountered every day. Some of us are blind, some lame, some deaf, some dumb, some resigned, some bereaved, some consumed – whilst living – by thoughts of dying, some helpless, some hopeless, some wretched, many crying. All gritty. Inspirited dust and ashes. To each and all Life’s call forgives, reminds, restores.  Dust of the earth, adamah, we yet hear the word “Arise”. Ash Wednesday may yet change all our days – past, present and future. Gritty. Real. We’re headed for the desert where we’ll face down our fears. Come, beloved, arise. For, as one of my favourite priests and writers proposes today:

It matters to do more than survive. Life needs to be lived, not just endured. So this Lent I shall not be giving up chocolate, but instead I shall be actively, daily, giving up the dark tunnels of worry and fear, giving up an over-burdening sense of responsibility, giving up working overtime, giving up the bruising anger and resentment that I am entitled to. Instead I shall be living – for forty-six days – deliberately one day at a time, finding every day something to enjoy, someone to celebrate, and something to laugh about. It feels like Friday already. But Sunday is coming. I know it is.

via ashes to ashes – Maggi Dawn.

Dearly loved adamah, “dust and ashes”. Fan the flame … “actively, daily” … Arise.

ACCOUNTS, REPORTS AND WILDERNESS

PCC TONIGHT - considering accounts and reports – for presentation to next month’s AGM. And wilderness – the place we’re headed out for (“led by the Spirit”) tomorrow. Untouched “wilderness” – or as some dictionary definitions have it – “a place not significantly interfered with, or overpowered by man”.

Accounts, reports, and the AGM are actually just undergirding, infrastructure, support for what the Church, and the people in it, are really created to be. But we sometimes show ourselves to be a bit too wrapped up and bothered with the infrastructure – and that’s why we’re headed for a time of reflection, a facing up, with Jesus, to the truth about ourselves; dust and ashes living in the hope of renewed life, of a resurrection.

One of Huub Oosterhuis’ prayers is a help to me …

Lord God,
your kingdom is here
hidden and close to us -
someone to care for
and people to live for.
Your will is done on earth
everywhere where people
live and die for each other.
We pray therefore
that we may gradually
accomplish this from day to day,
and thus come to know your name,
and find you,
our Father for ever.